NOTE TO SELF

I try to tell myself these things and make myself believe them, but of course it is way easier said than done. Hence, here’s my little note to myself…

Enjoy the time you have. Don’t waste it “over-wishing” you had children or being sad you don’t. Or else you might miss all the great things that are happening right in front of you. Try to enjoy what you have and where you are in life. You have control over your own happiness, even though being happy at certain times may seem impossible. Don’t minimize the heartache infertility causes, but do know that you can’t let it overcome you.

Don’t loose track of where you are coming from and where you are going. You’re learning a lot about yourself and you are standing on stronger emotional footing because you’ve allowed yourself to confront the horrible, scary stuff! Don’t deny your emotions. Allow yourself to feel scared and cry when you need to because it’s preparing you to be strong and positive when you really need to be.

Don’t worry too much about if you’re being selfish. It’s not selfishness, but self-preservation. Do what you need to do to make it through this. Sometimes you will want to talk about it and other times you won’t. This is okay. Just take it one day at a time. And someday soon you will find yourself smiling at little children the same way you hope to smile at your own someday.