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Saturday, July 11, 2009

PREGNANCY TESTS: The Emotional Shocker: TREMENDOUS HAPPINESS OR INTENSE HURT IN JUST 3 MINUTES

The 3 minutes of waiting after taking a home pregnancy test is brutal! For me it wasn’t that the 3 minutes seemed to take forever, it’s that it went by way too fast! I’d sit there thinking and imagining how I’d react if it was positive. Would I stand there in shock? Would I cry? Would I scream while jumping up and down? And then I’d think of how I would react if it was negative again. Would I cry this time? Would I have relief? Would I think I was okay and then only find myself bursting into tears 2 hours later? I would have to force myself to go into the bathroom to check the result on the stick.

The sinking feeling of sadness associated with that one line (meaning NEGATIVE!) on the pee stick is sickening. Oftentimes, I’d find myself checking over the directions just one more time to make sure one line didn’t actually mean “pregnant.” Unfortunately, the printed directions never changed – yup, one line meant one thing – BIG FAT NEGATIVE!!

Time and time again of those moments of immense expectations suddenly followed by agonizing failure, are enough to make you fall to your knees. You’d think it’d get easier after so many years, but the disappointment and hurt is just as intense…every time…

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