Our precious boys...

Our precious boys...

Sunday, July 26, 2009

UNREALISTIC FEARS = RIDICULOUS FEARS

As time passes and you think more and more of why you aren’t getting pregnant, you mind starts to go a little bizzerk! You think of all the reasons as to why it might be that you aren’t becoming pregnant, other than common medical reasons.

I took out my belly button piercing (that I foolishly got in college) after 8 years of having it in, because I was convinced it was poisoning me with infertility juices. I started considering switching up my brands of deodorants, shampoo, toothpaste, etc., just in case the specific combinations of these items were making an adverse affect. Crazy, I know…but I do think about it. I also thought maybe I should stop doing so much painting with my craft business. Maybe the paint’s toxic fumes were invading my reproductive system.

Or maybe there’s something in the water we’re drinking. Or is Nick’s sperm allergic to my eggs? (Sounds like a joke but that is actually a real medical problem.) Did I do something to damage my reproductive system? My grandma told me something when I was very young about how I shouldn’t be in gymnastics because it might mess up my “girlie parts.” Maybe she was right?!

I keep telling myself these are unrealistic fears. But why do these crazy things keep entering into my mind? I think I’m desperate for that one thing I can change to make it all better. If only there was one thing we could so simply do to make all this go away. - Even if it does involve ditching my current “fertility poisonous shampoo” (the brand I love oh so much!) and finding a new favorite.

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